Three short years ago, when we moved to Louisville.Do you ever have a negative countdown? What I mean is . . . "Three more days until vacation is over", or "two more weeks until the big move", . . . When you count down to something dreaded. This leads me to - we are in countdown to Kindergarten. In all honesty, I'm trying not to allow it to be a negative countdown. For Ella, it is exactly the opposite. She is so excited. For me, I feel like it is the countdown to change. I think I am starting to process it a little better, and honestly will probably be just fine one week in when she is settled and happy and our new routine is underway. It is just the unknowns. We have lived here in this home for exactly 3 years (almost to the date). I have been blessed to be home with the girls during this time, and work at their preschool. Change is coming in less than a month :)
I am a creature of habit, a lover of routines and predictability. I know, I know - not all change is bad. We have been through several moves, new jobs, new homes, new additions to the family. All have been great. I know I will miss her, though, and this precious time together. Lots of people tell us that this age is the best, don't wish it away. I'm not - I'm dreaming of time standing still and being in this place of innocence, preciousness (yes, I'm sure it is a word when referring to your sweet little preschool children), and simple joys.
I am just thankful - thankful that I have been able to be home with the girls this past 3 years, and thankful that we strive to prioritize family over a busy lifestyle. I often miss the girl who has disappeared for awhile in place of this mommy at home, but I wouldn't trade it for anything.
So Kindergarten better watch out - the sweetest little 5 year old is about to take it by storm. (Really, if you know her, "taking it by storm" is probably over the top strong with her personality, but you get the point) She is ready, and mommy knows time can't stand still. I will cherish all the future moments just as much, if not more, than all the past ones.
